The Sunday Post: Work, Work, Panic, Work

Trying out BLEACH London Dip Dye kit// Finally watch The Amazing Spider-man in my cozy bed// Lift selfie, preparing for a Uni presentation// I uploaded my first ever vlog!// Trying out the dip dye look// Yummy Starbucks caramel macchiato// View of Cardiff from Starbucks// My Topshop dress I got in the sale// Cooking up some meatballs for dinner// Brand new iPhone 5s// Giving up with the Casual Vacancy and starting Gone Girl// Cheeky cocktails made with the cocktail set my brother bought me for Xmas// My favourite quote of the week, might start doing quote of the week posts hmmm//  

This week (well technically two weeks as I missed last Sunday's post) has had its ups and downs. It started off fairly smoothly, preparing for a presentation I had at Uni, finally getting the BLEACH London dip dye kit and having a bash at that. And then, for some completely unknown reason, my anxiety flared up to gigantic proportions. 

I'm sure I've mentioned that I have an anxiety disorder in past posts and I also did a video on it once, one I'm thinking of re-doing for my main channel if people want to see it. But since doing my presentation it has reached the red zone, critical, the captain's going down with the ship kind of level. I've now had to cut back on caffeine, which means goodbye yummy caramel macchiatos, and alcohol, which as a student means goodbye social life. It has sky rocketed so quickly that I now can't sit through my lectures, go shopping, or anywhere public without feeling like I'm trapped in a box without oxygen. But do not fear readers of LilacGhosts, I have made plans to see the mental wellbeing people at Uni and I am on my way to sorting my head out. This is after many years of being told 'it's your hormones, you'll grow out of it' or 'your just stressed, do some deep breathing, read a self help book and you'll be fine'. 

All of that palava is for a whole different post though so I'll leave that there. On a more positive note I got a new iPhone 5s which I love dearly, but I did feel bad handing over my loyal iPhone 4s, he served me well. I'm also starting to love my ombre hair, despite it drying the ends of my hair out more than the Sahara desert. I would also like to point out that I gave up caffeine and alcohol after I took those above pics! 

So overall, yes I'm in a constant state of panic at the moment but good things happen all the time and I'm trying to focus on those. 

 P.S. If you do want me to do a post/video on anxiety just let me know, I have a lot to say on the subject.